My Life

2007-02-15T16:51:00.000+08:00

I WANT TO CHANGE TEMPLATE!!
hahaha ANY kind soul who reads my blog bother to volunteer and help me? ( i hope theres ppl who reads this anyway.

okay im uttttterly confused and i dunno what to do next.
some one teach me! =((

and i figured i only update when im REALLY EMO~ING.

booooooooooooo!

2007-01-07T18:12:00.000+08:00

2007 is starting off on a wrong note.

what a fucked up feeling.( and no. its not about girls or a girl. )

this sucks.

OH WELL. LIFE GOES ON.

2006-11-30T01:27:00.000+08:00

TELL ME TO STOP TRYING.

im tired.

im jsut waiting for it to happen. when it comes i just have to take it.

UH~~

2006-10-16T23:55:00.000+08:00

We never blame ourselves do we?

Sometimes we know its our fault. But there are always these words bugging us not to say it out loud.

EGO/PRIDE/FACE

(I know I suck. AT some stuff or another. But at times I never want to admit them.)

Then again. By admitting that u suck at that particular thing. WOULD it mean u have already lost the will to fight? Simply saying, you have already accepted the 'FACT' that u are NooB?
Maybe we will then remain as SUCKY because we think its a FACT.

So should we NOT admit that we are sucky at something even though we are?

THEN again. Wouldnt that make one complacent and arrogant. Giving oneself the self-confidence one should never have in the first place. Would one then want to push himself to achieve better as one already believes that he SIMPLY RWAKS at that thing that he in actual fact sucks at?

AHAHAH LIFE DAM COMPLICATED LA.

2006-10-10T23:59:00.000+08:00

STRESS!!

Life after promos KILLS you.
I love chinese and I love project work.

U have so much time u start thinking. Thats when it all comes.

I know I have to study when lessons officially start. IF not i will just die if i promote because of the commitment to soccer ( which i suck at but still love ) that will take alot of studying time away.

Life in Jc is like a passing rain, so short, so fast, but so refreshing.

im not emo-ing!

2006-10-04T21:46:00.000+08:00

So its over.
All the mugging for this one week of torture. (there is still history and chinese. BUT WHO CARES ANYWAY!)
SO its time for play play play and more play.
Not to forget the promise i made to myself to train everyday. I CAN. I WILL. AND I SHALL.

WHEN you make a choice. DUN REGRET.
Am i regretting it? i hope not.

Once its gone its never going to come back. ( right? )

Dunwanna end up losing everything... NO.

2006-09-08T14:28:00.000+08:00

OH man.

I feel dam stupid. Went msia yesterday with nizar and his family. Me and sean just tagged along.
IT WAS DAM FUN. All the shopping and shit. but i still want a pair of dunks.

Anw, i think i lost my key at msia or dropped it in nizars car. THE BOTTOM LINE IS - im now stuck at home, unable to go out, PURELY BECAUSE I HAVE NO KEY.

how dumb can this get.

" EH MR ALMIGHTY!!! HELP ME PLEASE! "

I should be making use of this time right now to study instead of slacking and doing all kind of stupid things like bloggin to complain about my own stupidness and i really should get down to studying because im quite stupid and i need lots of hard work to pass my promos which is like 3 weeks away only AND of coz theres spa skill c,d that sucks totally and which i think i cannot pass AND there is still so much to be learned for promos.

HOW STUPID CAN I GET.

i think too much sometimes.
take it as it comes.
Let it go if it wants to go.

p.s i feel dam stupid being locked in my OWN HOUSE. haiyah. i could have been playing soccer.

2006-09-01T20:32:00.000+08:00

JUST WHEN U THOUGHT EVERYTHING WAS GOING THE WAY YOU WANTED IT.
HE (WHOEVER THE OMNIPRESENT ONE IS) GIVES U A KICK RIGHT UP YOUR ASS AND REMINDS YOU THAT LIFE'S LIKE THAT.

fuck it.fuck u.

2006-08-27T10:35:00.000+08:00

Its been a long time since i really posted a REAL post.

I shall try to do one now. BUT most probably i will just do a short one ah?

Been mugging hard with MYNEWGAYPARTNERS (who are not gay at all considering the girls they want ah? =b ) Studying isnt all that bad after all.

JAyCEE life is dam stress lah. Whats with all the project work, service learning, and all that rubbish promos coming in. WHERE IS O LVL? i would rather study for o lvl all over again. AT LEAST tht was just studying and ONLY studying.

But then i must have faith in myself. i can do well and i will do well ( maybe econs is an exception. and history, and physics, and maybe maths... oh yeah, gp too? )

ARSENAL IS STILL THE TEAM! MY TEAM , THE TEAM, BEST TEAM, ONLY TEAM.
Oh yah, AJSoccer had a friendly on friday, we didnt play very well but we still won. 2-2 then penalties. BUT still fuck those comments eyh?

Mohan played me as DM. and i guess he wants me to stick to this untill i get drop. maybe i wil be ballack? or maybe im just leon.

ANYWAY. i should just not think too much hhuh. there isnt much hope. =D

2006-08-15T23:46:00.000+08:00

HAH.

Im here to blog about teachers.

Why do they always think im showing them attitude?

And why do they always think we are not putting in the effort. JUST BECAUSE OUR FACE LOOKS TIRED AND OUR RESULTS SUCK?

EH PLEASE LA! i study so hard to come ajc. u think i want to retain?

zzz.

2006-08-13T00:42:00.000+08:00

HEYHEY! im back.

hahaha. i wanna promote.

AND WALAO. DAM MALU.

2006-07-16T22:45:00.000+08:00

Okay. Im back after a looong time. Got back all of my common test results.
Like how suck la.
Econs - 21/55 physics - 50/100 maths - 24/70 History -18/50 GP - 24/50 Chinese - 69%
I THINK I CAN PROMOTE WITH THESE RESULTS YEA?!
Anw, for year end, i wanna pass maths physics gp and chinese. The rest can go home and sleep.

HAi, project work is one hectic subject. IM SO GOING TO BE SIAN IF I GET A Cgrade OR SOMETHING.

Im slowly being brainwashed now. 9pm to 12mn is the time i do my homework while watching tv and using the computer nowadays. It used to be only for teevee or pc okay!

OH YAH OH YAH. Soccer trainings started , yeah, its like my life aint so empty anymore. Even though im quite lousy at soccer, i still like it alot. wahhahahaha.

Hmm, had flag day yesterday. Maybe its the place im standing at, or my face, or my passiveness or my vulgar belt. I GOT LIKE SODAM ALOT OF REJECTIONS LA. First time in my life so many people reject me in a day. TT__TT

OH YAH. Went band concert and the pizza hut outing with the nj peeps last week and last last week. BAND CONCERT IS SO DAM KILLER CAN. i think i cannot enjoy such stuff yeah?
All of us were going,'' dunwan encore ah dunwan." ahhaha. BUT THEN the rock segment part was kinda nice.

Hmm, im gonna work hard and study hard and be the mugger tht i am now. OFF TO SLEEP. NITTTTTTTTTTTES!

2006-06-28T20:44:00.000+08:00

yea. Haven been blogging for about 3 weeks. Supermanreturns.

Spent most of the holidays slacking. Dint have much mood to go out in the last 2 weeks tho, went to chalet with my family, sort of a yearly gathering thing. Was fun, took some really retarded photos, but still dun have them yet. Anyway, i wun upload them. Very lazy.

Common test, i tried to study in the last week of the holidays, i really tried, but world cup proved to be one hella of a distration. NVM, it makes no difference, i think i will fail quite badly.

I think i injured my shoulder, super pain. ESPECIALLY when i write, so i think im going to die tmr- chinese essay, and friday-history essaySSS.

OH YAH, afternoon naps simply rocks my socks off, these few days i sleep at 12-1 to 5-6. And the best thing is !? u can still lie on the bed and daydream after u wake up and not rush around preparing to go to school or whatever.

I... shall stop here.

2006-06-06T22:54:00.000+08:00

OH well. First week of holidays passed quickly. With PW, physics tys to keep me busy.
BUT THEN! most of my time was slacking. zZz-ing.

Chinese and econs not done yet. and many many many freaking hrs of mugging to put in for mid-yrs.

2nd week started with a BANG. Went to play soccer with Sijie and his CHR frens. Play with the mats and all that. wwhahah zai. Anyway, played soccer for the whole day can! song.

Hmm, that was yesterday. today was the first day with make up lessons. I think i only paid attention in maths lecture and tutorial though. Econs was simply nothing. Like WOOTS. The old man and his crazy lecture style. 3 words on the slides and he speaks for half an hr. o.0 0.0 .0.o!

BEH. shall start reading chinese and finish it by thurs.
BTW!
HISTORY SUCKS TOTALLY. ( worse then pw. go figure.)

Ah.... everyone is busy. im so free. =(

2006-05-29T21:40:00.000+08:00

Heh. met up to do pw today.
We were at the kiddie section doing. And like 4 grps from our class were in the activities room.
Me, Amanda, ZhiYu , XinChu.
Jiamin, Marcus, Ken , Jewel ( Zhenkai oso part of this grp i guess.=P )
Sihui, Desmond, Yu xiang, shirley.
Nashita. ( the rest left before i saw them so no count? )

yah. so. pw. is. still. kinda. fucked.

We need to meet Mrs Yim tmr. And it still aint done. WE ARE DOING OUR BEST OKAY?!
My brain juice all use on this that i haven do any holiday homework which i promised myelf i will do.

Holidays are like busier then school days. i shall conquer my homework, my pw, my revision, and i have to excercise. hahahh keep fit regime.

NOW TO DO PW!
i miss childhood.

2006-05-28T21:25:00.000+08:00

Thanks to Nashita for this blogskin!
Even though the font colour is kinda WOAH, but its still very very nice!

Im getttting fatter! wooo! This holiday i am going for morning jog everyday!
May my self discipline not waver.
EVERYONE PLEASE TELL ME HOW FAT I AM! --force me to stay fit! thanks ah.

hahahaha. shit. later my ego. T_T

2006-05-27T00:02:00.000+08:00

My group GPP is screwed. How? May God/Allah/Buddha/?sunwukong?o.0? bless us.
I am going to die. I spent the whole time walking back home thinking about maintainence ideas. Got so engrossed that i walked straight into a little girl. Then she fell down on her butt! i was so so so so so so dam paiseh and guilty can.
Still cant think of any idea.

NO INKLING.

AT ALL!

Who cares, holidays are here. Jam-packed with stuff to do.
PW- sucks. Homework- sucks. Lessons-sucks. Mid-years------>SUCKS
I think ah, im gonna die of depression. OR 10 000 tons of stress.

I dun care. This is going to be the first time i am going to finish all my holiday homework! i shall not be affected by the tommorow-nitis problem!
AND!!!
It will all be done on time. =)

I am going to start tmr.

OH yah, my molar tooth is to be extracted sooooon. imagine blood spurtinnnng out. pfsst!
Wisedom is coming. and molar has to make way. oh wellllll.

bless me bless u. niteeeeeeee

2006-05-20T13:58:00.000+08:00

Im getting weaker. All of a sudden i fall sick. Slept since 7 last nite untill today morning. Kept waking up coz i felt like puking.
And my back hurts.

Well, dint go to Funtasia. Dun think im going big walk tmr either. =[

ah, i have to revive my blog. hahah. its so dead, with so many people reminding me. somebodaaa help me!

16 Gp newspaper articles, 3 history essays, chinese worksheet. u think i can ever finish it? Jc life really sucks.

i hate falling sick. it makes me feel so depressed.

Why are u doing this!?

2006-04-25T22:09:00.000+08:00

YEAAA! im here once again after very very very long to post-it!

Hmm, nationals are jsut about over. and i haven played yet. and i dun think i will. SHIT LA!
my soccer dam lousy lo. dun tok about it.

Oh yea, studies suck. As in really really sucks. i oso dunwan to tok about it. hahahaha

Well welll welll welll wellllll! went to watch nj dance concert at nus last friday! like wheeeeeets! Great performance. Saw yujia being GIRLY! hahah woots, u loooook great la! ( i noe u want me to blog jsut to say this! =D )
Went for supper at macs after tht with the pae. And met the soccer seniors. ahahha they are so full of shit! Those trngs really were super fun. Serious and chionged during the trng and so dam full of cock after tht. AH.

Then monday nite was AJIDOL. Aj actually had so may singing talents ah. not bad! Maybe if they change their image abit for some they would rock the stage man.

Ayes, relationships really super super mafan ah! hahahah cheer up ppl! Must be like me. Stay happy even if im sad. ( IM SAD NOW! =D ) aiyah. ok la cheeeer u guys.

2006-04-18T18:54:00.000+08:00

Hah, im back. After Joyce reminded me to post. Like ok lo. im here!

Soccer. I wun be playing, coz coach dun think im ready. And i think i sucked at trainings. so YEA.
Im getting FATTER. OH MY HOLY MAMA BANANA! Must excercise more.

Hmm hmm hmm, schoolwork really sucks. Physics econs and history. Totally do not understand. And commontest is like in 2 weeks? WOOTS. haven been attending any history lessons so far because of soccer nationals. So how the hell am i gonna noe wad is going on?

BAH, cant wait for friday! Gonna watch HOT HOT dances! hahaha Cant wait cant wait!

Life is kinda so simple nowadays, no excitement, and xing xian gan. HAI!

NO deep thoughts. im a shallow person.

2006-04-09T10:42:00.000+08:00

Wassup!

Still didnt get to play in nationals. Maybe im really dam lousy. HAH.
Went back for NJc talentime on friday, was kinda expecting a major major event like CHMA. But, it was disppointing. The performances wasn't that great.

But i saw alot of people! On the bus i saw soccer senior. Then walking into the gate i saw Yujia. Haha, i still think her voice very cute. Like a little child. =D

Den went to canteen to meet joyce first. Coz thoomas was trng and Xinni playing bball against small kids =P The small kids dam good la. We were watching them play. HAH! so cool.

Well, went into the Lt for the performances! Miss Heng joined us. AND she is soooo infatuated over cool mr botak guy! HAHA, tHOMAS ANG better propose fast! And as wad joyce says, learn the piano and guitar and drums and wadeva not!

Then went macs to eat with Roman thoom and xn.

Reached home at 12.30 wooots.

Had trng ytd, went to eat at kfc after tht. Listen to SM and his horny stuff for awhile before going to Sijie house for bball and soccer with jie, liew yg and gary.

Alrites.

boring entry! lazy to pen my thoughts. =D

2006-04-02T17:11:00.000+08:00

Its SUNDAY!!!

Im at home trying to do my homework.. Just did chinese, and now killing 13516 kazillion brain cells per second because of P.I! Why the heck is JC life so hectic.

Went out last night to catch V for Vendetta due to the rave reviews that most of my friends have given me. Thought- invoking they say... sad to say, i find the show quite normal. Maybe im just a shallow person OR i may be too deep for the show. =P

Caught the 11.15pm show at plazaSing with Liew and Jie. Ended at approx 1am( plus plus), after which we decided to go to the NEWLY OPENED CATHAY CINEMA! Brand new yea, really different from the abandoned place i use to pass by after tuition weekly. And we went exploring toilets and crapping horny,corny jokes that guys are so adept at. =D

After awhile, the fun wore off and we went to Netspeliz for free gaming. Weets, met WAn. JIA. and MC there. Played for like 1hr plus i guess, before going off to E-A-T supper! Washed down duck rice with vodka ( bought with MC's IC. Wad a old bugger =P )

Carried on slacking around with Liew and Jie as the rest took taxi home. AND caught the first train home. Well, kinda fun while it lasted, but the aftereffects are terrible. im super de tired now.

DO HOMEWORK LEON!

2006-03-29T21:18:00.000+08:00

TOMMOROW IS NATIONALS!
No. 30

AHhhhhh. Hopefully i will get to play in some matches. =D
( oh yea. i still need to get the shooting technique rite. That power power one. )

Hmm.
I am so gonna work hard this year. DO ALL MY HOMEWORK AND TUTORIALS!
So far all the teachers seem quite good. Maybe maths and econs teacher abit useless, but Self-directed learning is effective. Espcially when u have a brother who aces his A lvl.

Life is ok now. Its getting increasingly fun, i think.

I try to push the saddening stuff that is happening rite this very minute out of my mind. GIVE IT UP LEON!

2006-03-27T21:41:00.000+08:00

hey dudes and dudettes.

Thooommmmm zooom tagged me to do this perfect lover.
Must put EIGHT points about my perfect lover!

1)Mature. Knows what she wants to do with her life. A gal that exudes confidence about herself is super cool. But then again, she shouldnt be that independent that she becomes so guy. Im still abit the traditional. JUST ABIT!

2)Sporty! I hate gals hu hate to do any excercise! ( sit and eat =P ) K lah, i dun hate them. Just dun find them attractive. Hmm, hopefully she understands soccer! But doesnt really matters. as long as she enjoys the sun and all tht! =D

WAH PONG ( influenced by joyce.) Very hard to think of leh.

3)Ermmmm! Nice hair! stylish dressing style. [ to make up for my senseless one? ): ] Yeaaaa. nice hair is so chiooooo.

4) Cute in her own way. But not act cute! Or those kind of gals with the super TEHHHH voice. wahh, later all my goosebumps haunt me day in and out.

5)OH yeaaa. Must be able to talk crap with me. Sometimes i will be super quiet and sian until the other person start talkin, den i will start going mad ( provided i have the mood and the stuff to high!) or esle i will just stone.

6) Differen from the rest. I dun like AH LIANS!

7) Erm, intellectual. N-O---B-I-M-B-O-S-!

8) Loves me for who i am wholeheartedly. Doesnt expects alot out of me in the relationship? i hate pressure.

DONE!

Nationals Coming up. I WANNA PLAY STRIKER LEH!
Actually, can play i happy le. i jsut want the experience. =D

2006-03-26T03:19:00.000+08:00

Life is so full of UPS and downs...
Im finally gonna admit that im quite a sentimental person. I love sentimental songs. Be it chinese or english, the rest ain't as appealing.

After reading Victor's and Shit hui's blogs and chatting to Miss Heng a.k.a Lihui and Thomas online just not too long ago.Also had a similar convo with Joyce yesterday.It seems that its not only me that is finding the JAE hard to adapt... Oh yes. Even the people in the current class I am in now are feeling the pain of the changing of classes due to JAE.

Bonds and friendships are much treasured by teens of my age group. Yet, after new friends are made, the old ones are so much easier to forget. Its all just a passing phase in life.

How do we know which of these people that have one way or another came into our paths this lifetime are truely unforgettable? And at the same time you are to them what they are to you? Its so very easy to drift apart when physically ure not in close contact. ( Close as in being able to see them quite often. Please do not think otherwise. =D ) And I know its true.

Actually, i figured that at one point or another it happens to everyone. As what Thomas had reminded me of, what Lin Rui had mentioned a few weeks before PAE had ended," Everything will change tremendously after first 3 mths. Enjoy it while u guys can."
And now they are still having fun with their class. So, it simply proves that life moves on regardless of whether one is happy with it or not. No one can stay unhappy with life for so long, time can heal everything. People tend to look back and pine for stuff after they lose it, abeit only for a short period of time, for some its longer, for others it may not be even a problem. But in the end, everyone will finally pick up their bags and carry on threading the pathway of theirs with different people.

Once in a while, we look back, smile at our past, feel that tiny bit of nostalgia which motivates us to move on in that weary , winding and never-ending pathway of life.

But, isnt all these wad makes life so wonderful? Memories.

They will be there, be it happy ones, sad times, memorable events or those that u simply do not want to have.

Oh yea, on a happier note, people only feel sad when they start reminiscing. Which means i may be sad at this point of time when im blogging or when i chat with people, or when i read blogs. But when im not, I just dun think so much. And life goes on. Normally.Like it always do.

Bye!

2006-03-22T21:12:00.000+08:00

Hmm. Kinda finding it hard to adapt in AJ. Can't get high coz i dunno alot of people, BUT when its CHS people i simply can stop highing...

Soccer nationals is next week! Will i stay on in the team?
I kinda played dam sucky today...
I need to find my confident (and stamina) on the pitch. =

I had a nightmare last night.. Once again, its about me running away from some freaked out wierd transexxual. ( I dun always dream about transsexxuals LAH! But i always have dreams about me running away from ppl.. Started since SEcondary school and always comes on and off. )

I heard that if one dream of being chased by wierd scary ppl, it would normally mean tht in real life he/she is really unconfident of himself or something liddat... ANYONE CAN ENLIGHTEN ME?

Alrights. Until next time... =)

2006-03-19T20:53:00.000+08:00

Tmr is the day where i have to wear THE AJC uniform to school.

SHIT SIA! The pants shows off my CURVES ( FAT ASS! )

I still miss NJC and the people there... =(

2006-03-16T22:36:00.000+08:00

BACK FROM MALACCA!

hahaha... AJ has a TERRIBLE tradition of tearing underwears. TSK!

My favourite underwear got torn. AND it was admist my shouts of, ' DUN LAA! MY FAV ONE LEH!!!''
GUess the reply? " HU CARES!? I DUN! " =(
And thus, my pooor underwear got torn and is now still in the hotel room back in malacca.

This trip is suepr fruitful because we played 2 match inside this super huge EPL standard stadium...! The field is sooo f'king standard! which meant we ran like mad horses durin the match against the LEAGUE TEAMS! like wooot!?

But the coach is dropping 3 j1 players. Hah. hope it isnt me. But there is only like 1 space left coz Gary and Nizar are almost sure in. So yea. Just hope lo. Coz im like so new to the team, so chances are i wun be in. =(

Alrights.

Untill then. bye.

2006-03-13T23:19:00.000+08:00

ALRIGHTS! Tmr is Malacca trip.... WOULD BE FUN!
hopefully........

Oh yeaaaaaaa. I have to blgo about Valene. wahahahahaha....
YEAYY! dun worry so much about CTS! sure Ace de.... whoo!
ANd jus study bah! slow and steady wins the race!
SEE you at guardian next time! =P

untill thurs~~ bye

2006-03-13T01:54:00.000+08:00

Once again, many thanks to shit hui who changed my blogskin for me again! thanks thanks and thanks again.( Ain't this skin COOL? Appreciate it! )

I shall go bathe before i continue. Its 2 am and i juz got home. BE RIGHT BACK!

Wheets. Feel so shiok after bathing..!

Haha. Today was Sec2-4 gathering. only like 20 ppl turned up. but it was still super duper hyper great fun. Reached Jerick's condo at Bishan 8 at about 5 and ppl started to arrive... Generally slacked around and crapped untill like 6 before going to the tennis court to WORK THE LOVE MACHINE! ( my niketennis shirt =P ) But it rained like 30 mins later. ZzZ!

So, back to his apartment. CRAPPED And mahjong-ed abit more and we finally got organized enuff to go down to BBQ. hahha. it was about like 9 before we got the fire going and the food rolling. During which me and some of us when to the tennis court to play SOCCER!

hahahhahahahahahahah.

It was fun and crazy. Lifting the net to slide the ball under or chipping the ball over the net and jumping over it to get the ball. Wierd at first. BUT nevertheless soccer makes me feel shiok...
Then those ppl hu brought xtra clothes went FROLICKING in the pool. HAH. KInda GAY!

Me and Liew just sat down and ate and drank and talked.

Well. Sijie's father came to fetch him and me back at like 12mn to watch
LIVERPOOL-ARSENAL( score was 1-2 Arsenal. HENRY DOMINATES!)

Then im back here typing this whole day out. HAH. Malacca trip is tmr! Hope it will be fun and i will get to noe the soccer guys. Looking forward to it! ( ahh. really ah? =S )

ALRIGHTS! AJ AJ AJ OIIIIII!

2006-03-11T22:32:00.000+08:00

Im back to post.

I was just sitting in front of my computer with a dazed look and a tired mind and doing totally nothing meaningful, when all of a sudden i had this deep deep uncomprehensible thought floating through my mind ------- " Who are ure real friends? "

Are they the ones hu u always hang out with?
The few people hu u always eat lunch in school with?
The ones hu u study for tests together with?

OR are they the one u tend to look for when u wanna go out and have fun?

Yujia told me about this guy's blog. and i took this post from him....
"this is what friends are for:
friends laugh at ur ass whenever u fall
try to saboh you any chance they get
tease you with any girl they see you with
make fun of everything you
friends try to hit your crotch with the soccer ball
or kope your food when you're not looking
they laze around then copy your homework
and accuse you when you both get caught
friends borrow money and never return
and use ur face towel to clean their ass
they trick you into doing things for them
and run before you get them to do something for you

but when you need them they'll be there
to pick you up after they've finished laughing
to lend you a shoulder to cry upon
but after they put plenty of tissue on their shirts
they let you tease them back once in a while
and you share the laughs together
if they really do hit your crotcht
hey might just rub it down for you
or at least let you kick their crotches too
den roll around the floor together
they let u freeload on their food here and there as well
and let u copy some homework when its almost due
they treat you to some meal sometime
and they lend you their face towels too
many a time you catch them before they flee
and they do a good job for you"

You see. i tend to treat ppl hu i regard as friends very well. and ppl hu i regard as 'dicks' very badly. And sometimes, these dicks treat me better then those hu i regard as a fren. i think im a dick too... Maybe i deserve to be seen as a dick by others.

I dunno why. ACTUALLY i have alot on my mind. but i cant seem to organise them.
im quite moody these few days.

But i still try to be happy....

2006-03-10T19:36:00.000+08:00

Haha. Was kinda sian diao when i post the previous blog. SO yea. im much better now...

I think soccer cheers me up effectively. Im in AJ soccer. And somehow, it isnt so bad that im in AJ now...

Im going to Go melacca with them next week.. hopefully i can get along well with them. Later they ka bian me. =(

Anyway... May my new class in AJ be 3/4 as fun as ohsixasstwenty! den i'll be super happy le. But i wanna START MUGGING! be a true blue AJ mugger. =S i hate mugging.

IWANNAGOOUT!!!

IWANTOHAVEAFUNJCLIFE!!!

ALLLLRIGHTS!

2006-03-07T22:48:00.000+08:00

IM PISSED OFF AT AJC.

Alrights. My appeal failed. alright, so now im stuck in a school i seriously dislike.

The SYSTEM SUCKS. SCHOOL FACILITIES SUCKS. TEACHERS SEEM SUCKY.

Only good thing is tht there are ppl there that dun suck. CHS guys. and some other cool ppl. BUT THERE ARE STILL LOTS OF FREAKING NERDS.

Now i have no subs to take. THey require A for english in o's for h2 econs. so now i only have maths and physics at h2 level. ANd they require A for CHEm in o's to take it at h2 lvl too. and the require A for Pure geog at o's for h2 geog too. SO now im short of subjects.
WHAT THE FREAKING HELL ARE THEY THINKING?! I bet the principal thinks the school only takes in 6 pointers. GO TO HELL.... im freaking pissed off at this point of time. i simply feel like ponning the rest of orientation and juz sleep at home. IM PISSED.

And i dun feel like joining AJC soccer. I dun think i can even make it into the team.
I hate the feeling of knowing almost everyone there. Doesnt give me the chance to start afresh....
I know its DUMB to be affected by what others think of me. But i cant help it.

Life really sucks at this point of time....

Why is everything going against me? I really want to take things easy. I want to juz GO to AJC and enjoy myself. And hopefully get past A lvls with good results( excellent is really out of the picture.) But it seems everytime i manage to convince myself to try and take life in ajc with an open attitude, somethings come along and break my resolve. FREAK. im still super pissed with the school.

untill next time.. if there is one. heh.

2006-03-06T21:29:00.000+08:00

alright... everyone who sucessfully appealed in got the called already. i guess im juz gonna have to stay in ajc.

hhaha. enough of reminiscing. Cherrie is one Great person to tok to now. Stuck in the exact same situation as me.

thanks everyone for ure nice words and encouragement. 9.30 juz passed. all hope tht i can still habour has juz dissolved into nothingness.

Im crashing njc tmr. Last goom byes to everyone! TT__TT

2006-03-04T21:07:00.000+08:00

I suddenly had a strong strong urge to blog about my first 2 mths plus in Njc.
Thinking back, life was really really great there. I can still recall how T-E-R-R-I-B-L-E the first week was. But there are still a couple of ppl that I know from my OG and are close friends right now. Thomas and Yujia. ( Though it wasnt untill much later that i knew them more.)

2nd week proved to be great fun. The BRA gang. ( Victor. Thomas. Xinni. Joyce.) My dance partner Hazel. Our Civics tutor MS Heng and her boyfriend Mr Ang.My PE teacher Miss Lim( hot and cute and coool! ) Oh SIx ASs twenty. Oh five ASs twentY. Dance night was Funn. Especially the shopping before that and the bus ride home after!=D

Life after orientation was still great. The times we shared slacking together as a class. Crapping together as a class. ponning lessons tgt to do all those stuff above. Not forgetting those memorable outings we had mini and large, with the snr class or the BRA outing only. Esp the time when we went Prata-fest with MR & MRs Heng. =D

There's oso soccer. Never had the intention to join soccer cause i had totally zero soccer background and i only played it for leisure when i was sec 2. AND i was GK. Only started playing outfield 2 years ago. Therefore i never thot i would be good enuff. Luckily. Xinyi sort of forced me to try it out. ANd i never regretted from tht point of time. From the First training right up to now. I have been fighting hard to get my stamina up to level... Fighting hard with the team. Trying my very best to get into team A. The trainings we have had. The fun and Crap with both the seniors and peers, how can i ever forget them. I fought hard and trained hard for the past 2 mths. NJC SOCCER GO GO GO!

Oh well.
No use thinking. I tried appealing le. But let fate decide. Go to AJc. Or Njc.

NO MATTER WAD! NJCIANS STILL ROCKS!

2006-03-04T00:44:00.000+08:00

TOday is the worse day of my entire life.

Firstly posting came out. ANDERSON jc.
i dun really mind going AJc. In fact, im quite happy to go there.
But. there's so many things in njc tht i cannot let go off. SOCCER.. Ohsixasstwenty... Peeps in Njc that i know.. and senior class.

Next, i got this freaking sick rashes all over my sick body. ITS SUPER FREAKING ITCHY.
Its like 10000000000000000 ants crawling all over my entire torso. I cannot stand it. I juz wanna die....

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I really miss the people in njc. Its gonna be a big big decision if i can get to appeal in successfully. will i get to stay? will i not? DO i want to stay?

But on a not so sian note. Congrats to all those staying. and for those hu are kicked out like me. RELAX and take life easy. =D ( though i can never do it myself. )

ALright. now no use thinking if i can stay in soccer. its ' if i can stay in njc.'

Can I .......?

2006-02-26T21:43:00.000+08:00

WAH LAO EH!! i blog so long then my com hang..... T__T

NVm la. LAst week wasnt really interesting. Kinda boring.

Friday friendlt against Cjc. Sat against Hci. Im considered a Bteam player. whahahah
we lost both times. But nvm WE will improve! i will train harder.
GO SOCCER!!!
ALrite.Hope i dun get cut next weekkk T_T

K cool. Went danceworks with ohsixasstwenty ppl. Njc was good. But sadly they din get into top 3. DUN WORRY ROMAN. U were great. DUN BE DISAPPOINTED ORITE?!

WEnt scouting around for slippers with joyce thomas xinni after tht. Bought a GLobe one with thomas. ( $16.90) Then we went starbucks to tok crap. THE RASPBERRY SUCKS! whahah so much for ure intro Joyce. =P After we went pizze place for dinner. FIERY EXTREME ROCKS MY SOCKS OFF. it is simply toturous to eat the whole personal pan. URe throat toungue will burn like mad. STEADY Man.
AFter dinner.... WE WENT ROBINSONS TOY DPT TO PLAY WITH "try me'' TOYS! whahahahah. all the spongebob and stuff were suepr funny... i reached home about 10 plus. den i slept almost straight after i bathed!

Ok. woke up at 9 today! I did one econs essay before going grassroots to have lunch with my family. IT WAS SUPER NICE AND FILLINg. I almost burst lo.
Then went to KfC to do my 7 econs essay after that. i finished like 7 in 2 hrs. im impressed with myself. wahahhahaha.
Valene came like 1 hr later lah.... I finished work then she come.wahhahaha. so we decided to walk around AMk.
AMK has absolutely nothing. So we went to the old rundown arcade at jubilee. i think tht it has a wierd musty smell inside.... WAHahha. All these is super boring la.

Something super fun came next. WE GOT STUCK IN THE LIFT!!!
waahahaha. Upon's some1 advice, i sort of pushed open the lift door. and the whole lift stopped. WHEEEEEEEE. so i was like almost gonna die of embarassment and laughter. Lucky the door opened 10 mins later and we were almost running out of jubilee.. =D

Ok. so im home here. and toking crap online. and bloggin.

untill next week.

will i get axed...............?

2006-02-19T18:53:00.000+08:00

Hey hey. Leon is back to blog.
After reading Thomas's Blog. I feeeeel super inspired to write in GREAT english.
However. With my wonderful english essay writing skills, I will just end up out of point again.
SO, i will not write in PERFECT english. =D

LAst week was tiring with all the trainings and stuff. Time flies. Its sunday again!
Given the hard work i have put in for training, i felt quite sian when Soccer said tht players are gonna be dropped again. After surviving the first AXE-ing. I think it would be rather hard for me to survive the 2nd. Maybe coach will move me to right mid and let me stay in the team. hahahaha. Sometimes i really think too much.

Tues was Vday. I went movies with Val.I was surprised she had time! =P It was great. G-r-e-a-t. Anyway. i spend the last one hr of VDay with NCC ppl in Ncc Hq.
HAH! rather lame. coz we had to go to attend some commeration on totaldefence day.
That stayover is SUPER funny. The guys were playing with condoms and blowing them up like balloons, fillin it with water. WTH! Ncc rocks.

Erm. then it was trainin training the next 2 days.

Friday was road run. I din really push myself so i was kinda unhappy. I shall go runn later to make up. =P
After road run wE went MAD JACK's For some lunch with Snrclass and us. Kinda fun. Especially the crapping part with Vic, thomas, roman, huijing,peiying and some snrs. cant rmb =P paiseh.

Then it was back to school for friendly against M.I

i got to play for the last 20 mins. WE lost 1-0. i din do really well. made a few dribbles and passes but none of importance. will i get cut? ahhhhhh.

SAturday we had team session and then we had Training again. Kinda tough. coz we had strenghtening after field... Zzz. All these would be stupid if i got cut.
Then I went for lunch with Some of the soccer guys at Black canyon. the food was nice!
Went to Acjc funfair with Valene aft training. I FORGOT TO BRING MONEY!! so malu. hahahahah. WE were quite stupid lo! Coz it was raining super heavily and we couldnt walk to ACJC. And seeing tht both of us were quite direction-less we cross the overhead bridge like 4 times. back and forth. SO DUMB!!! Then we decided on taking a taxi. THE TAXI UNCLE WAS SUPER FUNNY! he kept crapping and crapping all the way. which was like 5mins. but he toked non-stop. it went smth like,"helloyoutwo.rainingsoheavilystillcanfindtaxiverygoodliao.youtwoverylucky.youallknowwhereACJCis?idunnoleh.umusthelpunclefindok?rainingdayisskatingday.wah!allthesecarsparkbytheroadsobigshotah?Theythinktheynathan'sfriendsizzt?......... BLAHBLAHBLAH." Valene was like almost whacking me for laughing non-stop. Lucky she isnt violent. =D

whahahahahah i was like laughing the whole trip. Walked around abit. saw a couple of friends there. Then we saw lin rui and jie xiang. Walked around tgt with them abit more. Den we left for jurong point! Lin rui went home first. So we went mac to eat. ANd Aileen joined us. Suan her abit about chnl 5 and 8 coz she ACJC jia kungtung one =)

So we took the train home. Walked with Valene to the bus stop and she told me story! cool! i wannt to hear more ah!

And now its today. =D

i will go run now. bye bye.

2006-02-12T11:34:00.000+08:00

Today is sunday. 2 days after results day. i finally found time to blog...

Friday was the most emotionally-challenging , Nerve-wrecking, mind-screwing day ever.
I think i actually inploded. I went to school and hanged out with all the ohsixasstwenty ppl hu came. Victor shit hui xinni thomas kevin winston joyce and lots of ppl! the Rv ppl oso came. whahahaha. ( paiseh. i lazy to comma. )

heartbeat: Normal

Then the Rv ppl went off to Kap to eat and go back for results.

heartbeat:accelerating...

So there was me, xinni and thomas , joyce, winston, ( dunman ppl Lo) hu ate at the canteen..
and my mind goes, ' last time here?'

heartbeat: BOOM BOOM BOOM

And we saw the senior class when we were about to leave from the main gate. hahah, they brought my mind off results for like 10 secs. GREAT!

heartbeat: AS fast as when im playing soccer.

So we walked the long walk out from the main gate to the main road... Wished each other good luck and i took a taxi off first.

THE TAXI UNCLE WAS DAM FREAKING FUNNY.

Taxi uncle: " Xiao di, dun worry la. U catholic high one leh. SCARED wad. Lee Hsien Loong School leh. "
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ME:" huh. so what ah ? i sure die one la. HAIIII. "

Taxi Uncle:'' DIE WAD! u dun tok rubbish. touch wood."

Me:" hopefully la. haiiiiiiiiiiiiii...."

The whole trip was me saying haii and he saying i can do it. What a nice uncle.
i actually thought he would not charge me for the FAre. But he did Not la. Tsk tsk. i think too much sometimes.

THEN, reaching the schooooool. i went to kcik some ball around with my friends to bring my mind off stuff.

SO into the hall. hall. hall. it was.

heartbeat: cant find. my heart was in my mouth.

Long long speech. felt scared. AND RESULTS CAME. Disappointing? i was expecting better... but its over. over. wad can i expect? Just so happy tht i can stay. Stay in this school with all my OH six ASS twenty ppl. They all did really well. GREAT JOB! u guys thrash me lo. Esp KAREN YEAHHHHH!!!! hu got 9 a1s izzt? With her huh look la! hahahahah.

ok lo. den after tht it was i not stupid too AGAIN. i slept thru it. hahahahahahahah.

SATURDAY CAME!

Soccer training. literally dragged myself off bed to rush to school in time for trng. ( I LOVE SOCCER ! ) Then it futsal. we got 2nd. i din really play much. haii. NVM! u guys are better then me. =(

Then i went kap with darren raj and COOL to eat. They were crappign to raj about how all the ppl in the team were mixed blood. What coach from africa. Darren half indian. im german malay american chinese and dunno wad. qingshen is malay. Aaron father is blanga. WTHHHH lo. i was luffing my ass off.

then i met roman to go meet the xinni valene thomas and lin rui for movie. i was late. hahahaha so roman was late too. THOMAS was worse. LoL. so we watch dick and jane.! so fun. though abit lame. but sitting on the steps to watch a movie was a new experience. hahahah coz first row SUCKS!

then we met shitty and elaineC and ESTHER and joyce for dinner and FIREWORKS. Saw heng heng with her THOMAS ANG at esplanade rooftop. wahhahahah so sweeet. enjoyed the fireworks and some lame games of MAFIA!!!

Then we walked for ages to get to the mrt AND I HAD TO MEET MY RELATIVES FOR LAAOOOO YU SHENG. it was like at 11.45pm liao. hahaha so paiseh. make them wait.

wad a long and boring blog entry. if u lasted eerything to get to here. I LOVE U.
But if u skip alot of parts to get to here. I LOVE U TOOOOO!

im wierd.

2006-02-08T21:11:00.000+08:00

My ass hurts. HURTS HURTS HURTS HURTS HURTS.

Tmr school starts at 8.30am but training starts at 6.30 am.
Soccer simply rocks my life. But waking up at 5am in the morning is like torture to me.
I shall work hard so i can forget about friday.. 'O' level.

How can i forget about friday la. About CHS. About the life in NJC?

Life in Chs is something i will never forget. My friends, my CCA and even my teachers. They will forever be part of my memories. I dunwan to reminsince too much. I will feel very sad.

Then i came to NJC. My buddies were all sent to AJC and i was all alone. First week Bored me out and i really regretted NJC as my choice. THEN OHSIXASSTWENTY CAME ALONG!!!!
With miss heng ( the hottest FUn-nest teacher i have had in my entire education.) And The bra gang ( WHEEu guys rock the shit out of me. onto shit hui. ) and THE OH FIVE ASS TWENTY!
With ROman LEster Ping Pong QIaNGGGG! Valene! Lin RUI! ZHan You! AND MANY MANY.
they simply made me want to stay in NJC.

I will if i could. i will.

2006-02-07T21:15:00.000+08:00

HAha. Today's tuesday. 3 more days to release of results. 3 more days of torture. untill tht one day of reckoning. 50% chance of me crying over my pitiful results. 40% chance i will be alrite with it. 10% i will be happy. PROBABLITY.

Well. Today school was super slack. Physics and Chinese was cancelled due to tchers on course.
AND TA DA. i was free since break. WAH piang. Went around with the class peeps hu had free lessons. Slack with Winston and Sijie in class till lunch when Victor Elaine SHitTY and some people came. Then we went for LUNCH! THen ROMAN LESTER PING PONG QIANG came to join us and we proceeded to the library which i was kicked out not so much later. The class Followed me ( sO NICE! ) and WE went Sr 31 to slackk thru.

THE MAFIA------- SO RETARDED! even natalie played. and shit hui and victor was dam good.
DEN THEY ALL WENT FOR LESSON. =(

SO roman. joyce. me. glenn. winston. were left in class slacking. ( okay la. i was slacking they were doing tutorials )
SHORTLY after, we were joined by sigma. which proceeded with a bad bad session of suaning
of jo & jo. and roman suaning me of course. WHEE. SIgma scolded me.( i was so scared tht i peed in my pa..pa.. pants and i had to change. )

Ok. so i went for trng and came home to eat, type this entry and go to sleep.

TAGG ME!

2006-02-06T21:43:00.000+08:00

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

My stamina sucks. i know it la. SIAN. dunno wad to do. No time to slowly train!
Now must hope that i can impress coach.

FIRDAy is results day!

can i make it? bad bad feeling.
den again. i dun think about it unless ppl reminds me of it.
OK i will forget untill friday comes.

GOOD LUCK EVERYONE!

2006-02-05T22:01:00.000+08:00

Wow. Today went to house hop with senior class.
I was the only jnr there la. oh no. so xtra. LOL!

So met some of the snr class 1st 3 mths ppl. All very fun one. den got scandals between them one. WHEEE. So scadalous la...

Went Aileen's house. Den ZHan You. Den Valene's den Eat. and go home.!
( Sorry if the name's spelling wrong! whahahahhaa)

FUn la.... Din really feel xtra. NICE PEOPLE LAAAAAAA!. wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

i shall blog soon.

2006-02-05T00:16:00.000+08:00

YES. YES. I GOT THE PHONE CALL!
I AM SO FREAKING HAPPPY.

I know im not fit enough. but i will try.
give me time.... i will do my BEST.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

2006-02-04T20:26:00.000+08:00

AHHHH! i want to stay in NJC.

I WANT TO GET IN SOCCER.

AHH. THE PRESSURE AND STRESS OF WAITING!

Ahhh. im like crapping to roman now.
He is like telling me his first impression of me.

if i could then i would says:
its like e arrogant, dun care attitude
if i could then i would says:
i thot u're a poser oso
if i could then i would says:
but actually u r la

HAii. I always seem to give people a bad first impression. How am i going to fare in interviews next time. Its like first impression determines u to most people which u dun really noe.
and it seems as if my face and actions say tht im a cocky bastard.

ROMAN! i am not a poseR la. i do not haf a bad attitude! im a good boy with a good attitude and im not cocky nor antisocial nor dao nor wadeva bad stuff u people think about me. im juz innocently mistakenly thought of as this GUAI LAN kia by many people. ( LIKE SHIT HUI LA! =D ) Even Miss Heng first impression of me was
"This Catholic High Boy ah. Sure is naughty rebellious PAI KIA type. GOt pierce Ear not? got Tuck in shirt NOT! ' im the only one hu kenna la. Broke my HEART. waahhahahah

I should go for plastic surgery. AND attend a modelling/etiquette( dunno hwo to spell! )

Ok. i shall end here. GO DO CHINESE COMPO! CHIONG ARHHH.

P.s everyone tell me ure first impression of me! thank you YOU very much.

Sat 4th Feb '06

2006-02-04T12:26:00.000+08:00

Oh yeaaa. I finally opened another blog!
Many Thanks to SHIT HUI...! (Who created this account. made the blog. and thought up of the URL)

AH. Its been one month in Njc. Orientation Week 1 Sucked terribly. ( So much so that my Og mates complain that im anti-social! ) Oh well, im juz a shy person. =D

2nd week of Orientation was so much better. 06S20 really rwaked. Found a couple of crap-people like me in S20 and ' THE BRA' was formed. Victor, Thomas & Xinni, Joyce. AND of course me. =) ( Notice its t&x. =D)

THEN. Lessons started..! Wasnt that bad coz my timetable was kinda slack, plus i never do any homework. AND brushing up my skill of sleeping through tutorials.

Results are coming out. im afraid. im scared. Deep down inside, i know that screwed up my 'o' level quite badly. (SEE LA! Slack slack slackk....)

Then, i worry about getting into the soccer team, the 12 J1s have been selected. Will i be one of them? Soon, i will know. Yet, why worry about this when i cant stay in NJC? Im such an idiot.

I may seem like a crappy person hu doesnt give a shit about life.( to most pp tht is. ) . However, those hu really knows me will tell u otherwise. I care alot about what i undertaking. I HATE to fail. Maybe im juz a cocky person who is so full of myself. =S

Aiyah. i go eat liao. byeeeeeeeee!

P.s NJC REALLY RWAKS, ESP s20 ( both the senior and junior classes) and SOCCER RWAKS too.